You sit in a folding chair, the kind with a slightly rusted hinge that pinches the back of your thighs if you shift the wrong way, and you listen to the man across the circle describe his “morning stack.”
He speaks about as if it is a holy site, a pristine valley he visits every single day. He details the specific temperature of his lemon water and the exact number of minutes he spends staring at the horizon before he even thinks about his phone. Beside him, a woman opens a leather-bound planner that smells of expensive tanning chemicals and unshakeable intent.
She flips through pages where every hour is a neat, color-coded block-deep blue for concentrated work, pale sage for “movement,” and a vibrant ochre for social connection.
The Planning Class
Linear, predictable, and color-coded. Time as a paved road.
The Triage Class
Jagged fragments, shifting shifts, and recovery wards. Time as a map of crisis.
When the facilitator turns to you, you feel the familiar weight of a lie forming in your throat. You want to talk about your routine, but your “routine” is a series of jagged fragments. This week, you had the Tuesday night shift. Last week, you were covering for a colleague on a Thursday morning, which meant your sleep was a three-hour nap sandwiched between a commute and
